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About Me Member Deviant of Many Talents Zhenghua aka Z19/Male/United States Group group avatar #ItDoesNotHaveMe
Disease does not own me.
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Almost died, back alive, but still a bleak future

Sun Dec 28, 2008, 4:45 PM
Hey guys. I kinda just died randomly and people wondered where I went. The truth is that I actually literally almost died a few months ago due to a sickness called Idiopathic Thrombocytopenic Purpera (ITP).

Basically, what happened was that one day, I had a nose bleed for 14 hours none-stop, it was like a faucet just pouring. It's pretty common for me to get nose bleeds for 5ish hours, but 14 is pushing it. So I went to the doctors to ask wth is wrong. They did a blood test on me, turns out I had only 22000 blood platelets, normal is 150000-400000.

Doctors told me to go home and come back tomorrow to get it tested again. The next day I went back and turned out I had 2000, which is like extreme fucking red alarm danger zone. I was hospitalized and put on a predisone treatment which was supposed to cure 80% of ITP. That ended up failing.

So then they used an IV immune globulin treatment, normally used to cure people who don't respond to the predisone. With my damn luck, that treatment didn't work on me either.

Now doctors are kind of out of ideas. They did a bone marrow biopsy on me (cut open skin, drill 3 holes into hip bone, use hugeass needle and suck bone marrow out. Sedation doesn't go into the bone, so that hurt like pure fuck in hell).

Now I'm on this cancer medication which is "supposed" to help my sickness. It costs 13000 dollars per treatment, with a 7000 dollar co-pay, 4 treatments total. It's basically this weird hormone/steroid extract from mice. I'm living on that right now but it's not something good to live on.


So this is me right now. I'm half paralyzed, the other half in pain even with high dosages of Tylenol and Benedrol. I have a huge incision on my back and 3 holes on my hip bone, so I have trouble sitting and lying down, and it hurts to walk or stand. I'm half blind with triple vision, I gained 30 pounds within 1 month, I am always hungry, I have horrible temper, I think slower than normal all due to the side effects of the prednisone I'm on. I have over 30 bruises on my body and it's increasing by the hour. I get bruises on my feet if I stand, on my butt if I sit, on my back if I lie down. I get spontaneous bleeding in my ears eyes nose and gums. If I am experiencing fever, headache, vomiting and nausea, that means the treatment is working and everything is going well. If I stop feeling like shit, then something is wrong.



I don't think life sucks though, It's still fun to be around. I dropped out from school to get this stuff cured, so I'll be around. I started drawing again too because of all this free time, it's pretty fun. I got CS3 too, I'll probably be active on dA again.

  • Mood: Pain
  • Listening to: My Videogame Song Collection
  • Reading: My eyes don't work lol
  • Watching: Zero no Tsukaima 2
  • Playing: Silkroad/Chrono Trigger
  • Eating: Home food
  • Drinking: Tea

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Devious Info

  • Current Residence: CO, USA
  • Interests: Writing, Art, Composing Music, Anything that involves creation
  • Favourite movie: Pan's Labyrinth
  • Favourite band or musician: Chumbawamba
  • Favourite genre of music: Pop
  • Favourite artist: God
  • Favourite poet or writer: Li Bai
  • Favourite style of art: Watercolor
  • Operating System: Windows XP
  • MP3 player of choice: iPod
  • Shell of choice: Green Koopa Shells
  • Wallpaper of choice: Grand
  • Skin of choice: Human Skin
  • Favourite game: Chinese RPGs
  • Favourite gaming platform: PC
  • Favourite cartoon character: Spongebob Squarepants
  • Personal Quote: Imagination goes where no man has gone before
  • Tools of the Trade: Creativity
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lol "Do you make 3d models"

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:iconprophet-izaach:
Hey biznatch. Thanks for all the comments. I really like vector art but I haven't been doing any of it lately.

Got a bunch of things in my mind but can't realize them coz I'm too lazy or too busy.
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Get well soon, dude. :<
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